


I"m heart broken
and no one knows. my friends think im over him but im really just dreding the fact on what happened. i want to be with him but dispise him at the same time. why oh why did he cheat. does he think about me? did he even care at all? what was i an experiment? i feel so used.. unwanted... abandoned!! i loved him i really did but he took no notice to it. im glad that i never told him that i did... it would have just made it worse... or would it have made it better? i don't know anymore. now im so scared to get into another relationship becasue i don't know if ill be used like that again. i liked him for almost 2 years now and he still doesn't know that i like him or care for him. i just wish i could get inside his head just to see if he even cared at all for me. why does love have to be so dificut. is it even love that i feel? i dont even know what love is. It's gone so comercial now that its not even real. is it just a deep like for him.... or love?? i dont know!! i gues im just down. seeing him tonight probably wasnt the best move to do. he smelled so good to. i know that sounds really creepy but i love his colone. swiss army i say is the best. but what are you to do when you like some one that doesnt like to back?? i guess the only way is to move on. well heres to all the lovers who servive anything and stay true.